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assalamualaikum,

tadi shaqy datang rumah,the three of us including dd talked 'bout going back to msia,

mira langsung tak rasa nak balik ke hape,

mira..takut,

it's not going to be as scary as last year right?

it's not going to be as much tears as last year right,

raya tahun lepas , memang tarik hampir semua sifat ceria mira,

instead, i cried a lot, i'm lost,

i ran from home which i never did,

i'm scared, i'm hurt but trying to show i'm ok with that,

trying to stay strong,

once , i wonder how the kids from broken family felt,

and now i know,

try watching your parents argue during first and second Eid day,

seriously, mira tak kuat mane pun,

that moment really got me falling a part,

mira tansk tengok lagi scene macam tu,

takkan,

that's why mira tataw mira nak balik ke tak..

that's human,

when you fall a part, when you are heartbroken, when you are drowning,

human tends to build a defensive emotional system,

to prevent the heart from excessive pain,

and i'm building that too ..