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salam

These past few days,

i was like..

i don't want to meet people,

i don't want to talk

or even pick up the call,

kind of depressed while waiting for my result,

siapa tak risau kan,

result tu dah macam antara hidup dengan mati.

So, today,

early in the morning,

Sheen called,

"Mie, asal tak datang uni ni, kau masuk group A taw"

i was blank for a while,

baru bangun tido kot,

what do you expect,

"Kenapa kena g uni?"

"Result dh keluar dah ni,aku dah tgkkan nama kau, kau passed"

aku macam terdiam 5 saat pastu,

"Woaaaaaaaaahhh,Seriously?!Tunggu, aku datang!"

Buat sujud syukur,

then serabai2 tu pergi uni,

dalam hati Allah jela tahu,

dup dap dup dap,

betul ke ni?

Sampai Uni, pergi jumpa Sheen,

get a hug then pergi Malaysian student management office,

dia tunjuk kertas then cakap,

"U passed"

Rasa diaaaaaa,

Alhamdulillah,

legaaaaaaa.

Lepas pun tahun 3,

Antara tahun yang susah

And now,

I am officially a 4th year student,

in the clinical year,

3 more years to go,

Excited nak pergi kelas ENT esok kat hospital,

gonna sleep early,

goodnight humans :)

79

salam,

Kawan,

Aku fikir dari sebelum kita belajar bertatih lagi kita sudah mula belajar mencari kawan,

Semakin besar makin susah nak cari kawan yang boleh dijadikan sahabat kan?

Aku jenis susah terima kawan untuk jadi sahabat,

SMKTU1,

Em..takde rasanya sahabat,

SMK Skudai,

Aku sudah mula kumpul sahabat,

 Sharifah Fathiah, 

Nur Aqilah,

Ruwaida,

Nur Asyikin,

Nur Afiqah,

Zatul Najihah,

Najahd,

I'm going through my adolescent phase with them,

We've done a lot to be scold of,

We played, we fool around a lot,

yet, 

We doesn't have any problem catching up with our academics,

when PMR was announced,

Most of us managed to score more than 6A's,

Since Jiar and I managed to get straight A's,

We both went to boarding school,

But, we never ever lost contact,

At least once a year,

We will have a get-together

MRSM Pontian,

I have 2 people that i love most,

Nurul Nadia,

Azlina,

We never liked staying in MRSM,

BOREDOM!

Almost every week, we try to find excuses to go back home,

childish enough huh?

Pahang Matriculation,

Fatin Hadzirah,

She's currently in India, doing her medicine,

and Shila Natasha,

She's in UTEM,

Both,

are changing a lot,

to the good,

Here, Egypt,

Adila Rosmazi,

Nor Izzati Shaqirah,

Nur Hasyireen,

Fatimah Kamal,

All are my diamonds,

Being a med student in other country,

REALLY testing us our patience,

Courage,

Independency,

But, I survive because of them.

Sadly,

Two of the above will be transferring to Malaysia,

Now,

Less diamonds,

How can i shine bright enough?

Do miss me kay girls,

Wherever you are,

Remember,

You are stronger than ever,

Stand firm,

Keep sprinting to your dreams.

Sahabat,

Kadang2, tersilap kata terkasar bahasa tersentuh hati,

Tapi dengan sahabat,

Kita belajar untuk minta maaf,

Menangis bersama,

Menjadi pendengar setia,

Menjadi pelindung,

Belajar tolak ansur.

Korang bukan Kawan,

Bukan Sahabat,

Tapi,

Adik-Beradik kesayangan aku.

78

salam,

Lately, banyak dengar kes bunuh kan?

kadang2, bunuh tanpa ada sebab.

Aku kira emangnya manusia memang sudah sakit.

Sakit mental,

Tapi masih lagi egoistik,

Sombong nak minta pertolongan.

Sakit mental ni bukan setakat yang cakap sesorang tu je,

contoh,

Kita depressed,

Cry without reason,

Inferiority,

Delusion about people talking behind your back,

Itu semua SAKIT MENTAL,

Tapi biasalah typical minded,

Asal jumpa psychiatrist je, 'Oh kau gila' .

Tidak sama sekali.

Kadang-Kadang bila kita melalui slump,

We fall into depression,

Kita taktahu nak salurkan ke mana perasaan tu,

Don't you ever feel ashamed,

Ask for help,

Allah,

Family,

Friends,

Lover,

Psychiatrist.

Jangan simpan kalau tak boleh bear the stress,

Or else, it WILL destroy you.

Aku pernah lalui,

Despair , feeling hopeless, useless untuk hidup,

aku pernah cut my own wrist,

aku pernah menangis setiap malam baru tidur,

aku pernah rasa nak tidur,lena dengan mimpi taknak bangun,

Bila kat tempat tinggi aku rasa nak langkah jatuh,

But then,

I found Allah,

He gives me strength and hope to stand again,

He gives me love,

Through Solat and Quran .

Love is amazingly a cure you know,

Through hurting or care,

Either way.

Disebabkan ini, whenever i want to say i love you, i'll say it,

I hope, their mind will be a little at ease,

aku memang seorang yang suka bertanya,

'Sayang kita tak?'

kat kawan2,adik,ibu,ayah,

bukan nak bodek,

Just wanna feel the love,

So,i will not do those thing again.

Spread the love,

We,

Human, 

Needs love in this cruel world,

Love people around you,

So, it will neutralize negative feelings or thinking,

less negative action,

decreasing the crime.

isn't it?